Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Love Understands and Therefore Waits


This is one of my first poems.

The poem itself is very ordinary.
What makes it special is the fact that it was written in a different era: an era that was, only 15 years ago, but it was so different.
For, it was an era of a different love, an era of waiting for one’s beloved for a life time, ‘for ever’ was a norm among those in love. To remain loyal to one person all life and the idea of ‘eternal love’ were things that defined how people loved.
Living today, at a time when it is the norm to ‘move on’ in life, relationships lasting only 2 years, 1 year, 6 months, even six weeks, and then people moving on within a week of break up;
a time when people in love sometimes get over each other, after which it is considered practical and pragmatic to ‘move on’, a time when waiting forever seems like foolish romanticizing, and then there are one night stands and wham-bam-thank-you-mam affairs which were unheard of and unthinkable in that era, only 15 years ago, when this poem was written.
I was sixteen, and insanely in love with a classmate; both of us were too egoistic to even talk or look at each other except when stealing glances; but I had had the luxury of one hand shake, that had lasted a few seconds longer than handshakes normally do: one day the classes ended, I moved to a new city, but believing that I would wait for him all my life… and I relived that handshake everyday for I don’t remember how many years…

You may disappear into nothing
And vanish into void
Someday and at some point
Beyond the limit of my vision
The very fact that you existed
May become an illusion

But your memories will linger
In my mind always
My hopeful eyes will
Behold your pictures always
Your deep voice will resound
In my ears always

It’s my little heart unbroken
Full of dreams and fascinations
Its only feelings unspoken
Supporting this anonymous relation
But the fragrance of it
Pervades beyond the horizon
The intensity of it I am sure
Will surpass your imagination

I feel as though I have
Known you for years and years
I nurture and nourish my desires
With pains and tears

I shall still wait for you
Years and years after you’re gone
For the sun descends everyday
With a promise to return the next dawn


22 comments:

aman said...

well guess thats what love is all about...Illusion.....the best way to describe it.....

surprises the fact that a stranger can become the most important thing in your life......why and how...never understood.....never

Sowmya said...

Welcome aman....

It is the fact that a starnger can become so imporatant that proves that Love is unconditional and therefore truer than all other relationships...

With all other people like parents, relatives, .... there is a reason... You are related to them.... by chance... if not for this fact, you would never have loved them...

Anonymous said...

Very touching and sensitive poem. Just depicts the innocent heart of true teenager.

Love is best experienced if its mutual - so they so. Love is also beautiful when taken with a pinch of pain. Lost love is better than not loving at all.

Sowmya said...

Thank you anonymous... but pls tell me who you are.... :)

Richa said...

Amazing Poem..

SR said...

You ask me how sweet waiting can be, I am waiting for some one dear. I wish I can hold her in my arms and shower kisses on her. :)

SRS said...

You are waiting for someone, and someone is waiting for you.

Anonymous said...

Didn't spend enough time to get to know the romantic in you... I guess a drive across the city at night in a junkyard car is hardly enough to get to know a poet :-) ... keep voicing your heart... the world is a better place with people like you

Sowmya said...

Welcome Jose to this space...

Never mind the car... I travel by BTS bus all the time, everyday... Any car is good enough for me...

I can only respect an individual for driving a fiat in present times when everyone is after fancy cars.... a lot them think it enhances their image... its nice to know there are people still, who dont need the help of a poison exhaling motor vehicle to enhance their image...

Thanks for the really flattering compliment...


Do come back to this space... it likes your company...

Niva said...

"I feel as though I have
Known you for years and years" .. not all connections resonate with this feeling... but only a few or may be sometimes...it's juss that one time...

"I shall still wait for you
Years and years after you’re gone"...
considering, this was written when u were 17...do u still feel the same way... ? ...
for me... i kinda find it hard to relate to that through passage of time..meaning i don wanna wait.. it feels stupid to me..and though those tear-drop-memories still linger in my mind, i would tell myself..,"get a life bro, move on..."...:)..

Sowmya said...

This was my thought when I was 17. I seldom thought life would teach lessons that would change some of those opinions I strongly stood by...

Since you have read my post "As Perennial as the grass", you should know what I think about love now...

Tapan Mozumdar said...

Liked you composed approach. Please check my blog as you like poetry and leave your feedback

Anonymous said...

How long Love has to wait :)

Sowmya said...

Welcome Tapan to this space.

I wonder how you found me! I will check your blog and leave my thoughts there... :)

Welcome Anonymous...

Yes... How long love has to wait!

Anonymous said...

Waiting is a part of love, love will till next birth, if he has to

Sowmya said...

Aha... Now I am curious... Who are you waiting for?? ;-)

Anonymous said...

Someone I love, Someone worth waiting for ;) Just wondering will kidnap her will do, if she agrees ???

Arehuz said...

I love this. Thank you for sharing it. The final two stanzas are how true love means.

Nagendra Negi said...
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Nagendra Negi said...

The words are crafted with the warmth of innocence and longingness... with impressions deep enough to remain there on soul... All what i can say is its not merely waiting, not just about pain , not about time, even its not about healing..... love means doing it in a pleasing way... as you do it now...
best wishes..... and smiles :)

reNUka said...

It was the reply-comment that you made in 2008 that I made a lot of sense and made the point-of-controversy that has been in mind for long, clear.

++It is the fact that a starnger can become so important that proves that Love is unconditional and therefore truer than all other relationships...++

Well written! :-)

Anonymous said...

I felt the same 15 yrs before.. Reading this bought the beautiful flower in me blossom for a few seconds again..